Posted by garnet71 on March 28, 2009, at 21:23:09
In reply to Going downhill again - what to do?, posted by Garnet71 on March 25, 2009, at 13:29:30
You guys,
I don't have bipolar disorder. Scott, I know you know more about it than me...but..Everyone I know has hypomania at times--just observe people laughing and talking and smiling with one another. lol i just like to think I've grown from a shy little girl to a carefree, laid back, fun-loving, but more confident person. My childhood was miserable. I was trapped. I'm free now--liberated. I like to enjoy life and explore and be adventurous. That's not bpd. The older I get, the less I care about things that are not important-things that I once thought were. Especially what others think of me-well, I'm still working on that, but I'm almost there.
I think the xxRIs zapped the dopamine out of my brain. I have hypothyroid and low cortisol. If that got treated, maybe I'd be ok w/just ADD, and maybe some anxiety here and there. Or maybe the Adderall will correct the hypothyroid, since it can cause hyPERthyroid..My therapists have said I'm not even mentally ill...not that I believe that, but hey.
I was scared yesterday because the Adderall didn't work; it was better today. For some reason, when I take a small dose of Ritalin or Adderall--it feels like Benydryl or Hydroxyzine. Today, I took 3/4 of one twice. Made some progress on my work and don't feel as overwhelmed.
Now I might worry the Adderall will be disappointing like the Ritalin in a few weeks, but I'll just wait till then to cry about it :))
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