Posted by Vincent_QC on March 18, 2009, at 9:08:05
In reply to Re: In Defense of Cannabis, posted by Budzoid on March 16, 2009, at 20:05:34
> > I too share a lot in common. I started smoking in the 70's and can honestly say I had a really good, fun teenage/early adult life. I too look back on those times and wish life was that good now.
> I also enjoyed my experimentation into the world of hallucionogens(sp?). The 'cid back then was soo pure. The most mind expanding experience was from "shrooms. My best friend and I did way too much one time and I swear we could read the others mind. We completed each others sentences before we could finish. Ahh, those were the good old days.
> Speaking of the Floyd, I spent many a nights with my headphones on listening to them and "wishing I was there". I had my dream come true when they finally came to my town back in '94 and I got to experiance them on some "Beaver & Butthead" blotter. Almost a religious experiance!
> Anyway, I haven't done 'cid since then and don't really want to now. Maybe I'm getting old.
> Since I don't do those kind of things anymore (including Pot smoking), I can talk about them without fear of consequences. But I still say "those were the best years of my life, gone but not forgotten".
> I also think my body is now paying for all good times I had in my youth. But you only live once, why not live it to the fullest.
>
>Yeah, we had strong mush here also back then, around 89-90...if I can remember it's a common mush call "Amanita muscaria" "guessowii" in Notrh America....more yellow than red...muscimol is the things inside them who make them so powerfull with also the iotenic acid and they are link two major neurotransmitters of the central nervous system like the glutamic acid and GABA agnist and NMDA glutamate receptors and certain metabotropic glutamate receptors... So all the hallucination and the psychoactive effects come from this neurons effects... OF course it's toxic in overdose...I found myself at one point having to go to the emergency because I was feeling more sick than on a high trip...a lot of stomach pain, nausea and migraine...that was not fun at all...
I always found pure LSD to be a more nicer and intense trip... Before I begin to do panic attacks when I was using it... 12 hours of panic attacks that'S something you didn't want to experience again trust me!!!
The exctasy share a lot of common things with the LSD as well but it's so blend with a lot of "sh*t" inside" that's it's impossible what is make it so bad...I try it a couple of times and the last time, around 2005, I had a very unpleseant night of panic attacks waves that never ending...I was totally lost and I promise myself that I Will never toutch again a drug, even if it's just smooking pot...anyway just thinking of it make me scare...
The main reason why you canno't do two nights in a row of LSD was probably linked to the fact that LSD use all the serotonin the brains have...so the brain need some time to recover and make newer serotonin neurons...exctasy also as the same mechanism of action...that's probalby why also a lot of people feel drained the week after their trip on LSD or exctasy...with a lot of down and depression like symptoms... so it have to be a lot bad for people like us with anxiety and depressive problems....
I know that I play a lot with fire by doing hallucinogens drugs, but as a teenager, I was not aware that I already had some genetic factors inside me that was just wating to explose and appear... In my familly depression and anxiety problems are a lot present...that's genetic for sure...but sometimes I have some regrets and I wonder if I put me into the situation who I am now??? Maybe if I will never fall into the drug world I wil never begin to have a social phobia, panic attack with agoraphobia, general anxiety and many others psychologics problems like those ones...
Yes, I had fun at the time, but now that's not funny at all... I will never forget the good times I had on those drugs....the world I discover behind it, all the music I listen now is linked with drugs experiences....newer music will never make me feel the way I feel when I put on old LP like The Lamb lies down of Broadway of Genesis for example or something more weird like Gong - Camambert electrique or Gentle Giant - In a glass house ....for example... as well as more heavy music like Sepultura, when they release their "Arise" LP back in 1991, I was a lot into LSD and "pot"...and it was intense...Now when I download a new album from groups like "Muse"...or things like that, it's not the same things...that's not linked to my past memories and the good moments I had...
Anyway, I don'T live in the past, or I try do don't live in the past, but one thing is sure, I will always asking myself if I make things more wrong in my life and I will feel always guilty....I know that I don't have to feel like this, but that's the reality...
I also see some interresting shows...the 94 Floyd tour in Montreal...even if it was Floyd without Roger Waters... I see another real great show of Roger Waters for his 99 world tour...I smooke pot that night and I do a panic attack, but I enjoy my night... Well that'S nice to talk about the past but we are not in the past anymore... It's been a long time since I See a show...I can't stand big crownd and loud music...and see a show , when you take such a high amount of Valium like I do, will be probably just like open the window of my car and put the money outside the car...Understand me??? lol My cognitives functions are so affected now that I can't even watch a TV show without forget it after 30 minutes!!! lol I laught about this situation because anyway even if I just cry, it will change nothing...i'm like this and I have to learn to cope with the life I have now...and it's what I try do to...Life is so short, I wonder why I can't cope with my anxiety and continue to make my own road and succeed in everything I do???
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