Posted by sam K on November 27, 2008, at 0:33:48
Im on paxil 10 or 12.5 mill lately and Im still energyless and empty sometimes. I have no spice. I feel monotone and uninteresting. If I up the dose I get pretty hard hit side effects like tiredness, sleepiness, unmotivation, sexual dysfunction, and the worst one WEGIIGIIHT gain. my worst nightmare!:p I just cant seem to make much progress fast with the eating disorder stuff. So I'll take small steps. Im just a lowsy peice of poo these days. I mean I feel okay, but I still want to feel better, Im just running out of options.
I just dont want bothersome side effects. I want life to be at peace, not some battle all the time trying to control side effects/trying to distract myself from them.
Im sick of being shy and not being able to express myself. Im such a funny person and Im so nice and compassionate. Compassion is what I have most of because Ive been through so much and I know how it is to feel terrible, sad, anything negative.
Im sick of awkwardness and me being out of the flow of conversation.
Well thats it! hope no one minds, I sometimes vent here and use it as a diary kind of thing.If you have any medicine suggestions, tell me!! I wish best of luck for everyone!!
sam
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