Posted by yxibow on September 30, 2008, at 2:12:34
In reply to The WORST I've ever been, posted by Fivefires on September 24, 2008, at 1:12:07
> Provigil helps but doesn't last through the day.
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> I can't tell if Effexor-XR is doing anything. It used to help w/ anxiety but isn't now.Your chemistry could have switched -- Effexor may calm some people down contrary to thought because its rather activating.
> I've low iron, B12, D, going to lab.
This was measured from a physical test?
There are supplements and treatments to all of those, there may be physiological reasons for the above but I wouldn't worry you further.> Scared. Posted on Social fam' makes friend stay away from me.
I hear you -- I didn't get the second part.
> Asked pdoc augment Effexor-XR or regular Effexor w/ nortriptyline or imipramiine and he wanted to see how I did on a different way of prescribing my Xanax first. Provigil is only thing that really helps me and, did I say this already?, it only lasts about 5-6 hrs?????????????????????
How long have you been taking the Provigil? It is about half a day once the plasma level reaches its state.
Nausea and nervousness are possible side effects, if you have them, adding to the below mentioned issues with food
> I can go to MX to p/u as prior a*thorization w/ what pdoc wrote on there was way a no-go.
MX ?
> Any rest of you trouble affording?
Patented medication can be really expensive
> I only get it when they get in samples and when they have none, I have none and feel I'm gonna' lose it.
Have you or your psychiatrist attempted to enroll in a patient support program from the makers of Provigil, if he thinks the medication is helping you. Some makers will provide medication through low cost programs.
> I'm not suicidal, homicidal, or psychotic.
I understand this, it also doesn't serve a purpose to label yourself because it sort of is self-diagnosing.
> I'm having a lot of hot and cold rushes.
I think I mentioned this before, or maybe I'm thinking of someone else but this is a real characteristic of the anxiety "fight or flight" system. They are real feelings, and the system in our body was meant to protect us in primitive (and modern days) from harm from say, a mastodon or something.
Now, I do take it that you're female, so there's always differential diagnosis. I don't know what your insurance covers, but maybe some test can be run at a gynecologist if it is warranted -- but it sounds more like anxiety to me. I can't say, I'm not the MD.
> I have horrible agoraphobia.
This isn't your fault but perhaps there is a psychological connection to staying inside too long, and being disconnected from society. I know there are other medical aspects of it, but it too can be fought with CBT techniques.
> What's happened to me???????????????????????????
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> I'm still not considered a senior, think I'm pretty nice looking, just have these anxiety problems and sorta less the depression. Is it poss' someone missed this bipolar-II w/ rapid cycling? Does that sound like me?You already complemented yourself. Why not do more of that. That's nice.
> I mean I can be great fun to be around, but now this stint of entrapment, now 9mos, I've freakin' scared to death. Food just turns my stomach. I'm hot. I'm cold. I can't do very much w/o having to lie down, like right now.
More complements. I know from my own experience that I beat up on myself because of multiple problems but don't give myself credit for what I can do.
Fear can do all of the above. There are relaxation techniques. Fear is a very strong force but it can create all of the above. And its not your fault, again, something needs to change with your medication and to try to do little things. It can be a slow journey but there is recovery.
Most of the serotonin receptors in the body are in the stomach and other areas and its not surprising that food upsets things.
The entrapment can become worse if one lets themselves hide from life. I know, I hide under the covers sometimes because I don't want to experience what is going on with me. But there are times when I say to myself, I'm not coming home to just sleep, and I try to force myself to do something.
Again, these feelings aren't your fault but it would really benefit if you tried to do just the little things. I know you've said you're agoraphobic -- I don't know if you have a house or an apartment, its irrelevant. Just walk out for 1 minute and if its too much then go back in. Do exercises like this to improve your feelings and well being.
> It isn't time for me to leave this earth ... but oh I keep thinking about the astro reading, then I identify w/ the embarrassment, humiliation, and pain. I'm me. I had me. I can't find me!!!!!!!
Maybe you're searching for a time you knew, and I think a number of us can say we feel lost at times. But the present is the only place where we live. And don't give up on yourself, and whether you believe or not in astrology, if it gave you a bad feeling, why hold onto it, why not shelve it.
As others have said, don't give up, and the most important thing is to find your meaning and purpose. Your hobbies, what you enjoy, even if you don't enjoy them now, why not make a list of them to bring into your p-doc?
> bestwishesall, 5f
-- best wishes for feeling better
--- Jay
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