Posted by Mike_Cohen_2 on July 14, 2008, at 15:28:15
o.k., so I'm anxious like all day long. So bad, that I can't work right now. Been an RN x 15 years and this all started 16 mos. ago at age 39. I get depressed here and there, but I attribute it all to the anxiety. I mean it takes such a toll on my body, that I always feel like crap. That is depressing in itself. I'm not agoraphobic, although I don't leave the house much because I feel terrible. If my anxiety lowers, than I can go just about anywhere.
Be definition, people who suffer from GAD, have fears about this and that. They constantly worry about this and that.
Well for me: I don't sit and worry about much except when am I ever gonna get rid of this anxiety. I don't fear anything except a life of missery due to anxiety. I have no financial worries. Even if I have a worry, it's not right there in front of me constantly consuming me, yet I have all the symptoms of GAD.
It's hard to find information on this, as any google on GAD explains it as worries and fears as above.
Sure, I have GAD by symptoms, but not by definition. So with this in mind, what the hell good does going to therapy do. I don't feel like I have any issues causing the anxiety, nor the depression. i.e. I feel like it's all chemical and I want to get rid of it and get my *ss back to work and to life.
Everyone on this board talks about meds, myself included. Look around, we are all the same posters, were all trying the same drugs, were all still here because were not getting better.
I just had a crying spell out of nowhere. Why ? Where did it come from. I wasn't thinking about anything sad. A deep rush of depression came on out of nowhere, I cried, and now I don't feel depressed.
Just for the hell of it, I took a percocet the other day I had left over from a back surgery I had over a year ago. I was feeling so anxious and depressed prior to taking it. It was just a 5mg pill. An hour later, I was on top of the world, no anxiety, no depression. I was ready to go out and party.
This is obviously a chemical disruption of some sort in the brain, but I don't think the docs have a clue. Lets put our heads together and figure out what the hell is going on here. I know I'm not alone and I know the meds suck for most of us.
My wife had an Oxycontin addiction, and she is no longer my wife, but I know she got on Suboxone, which satisfies the opiate receptors without getting one high. Would this do anything for us? I'm just throwing this out there, all of this.
What a great resource this board is, but come on people, were all looking for a magic pill including me. What do we do? Every med we try takes a few weeks to work if it's going to. Everytime they fail us, that 2-3 weeks of wasted life and then another week or so of wasted life getting it out of our systems.
Please excuse my frustrations, but thats exactly what I am. Anxiety / Depression interferes with every aspect of our lives. For me, it's having good times with my two little kids, going to work, which I once hated, but now miss. Finding a mate to share a love life with. Are you getting my point. Right now, my life is pointless except for my kids. Can it be any worse? I guess for quadriplegics and the like it could be.
Love you alll.............
Gary
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