Posted by bidatheraptor on July 6, 2008, at 22:42:35
i have bipolar 2. i am taking lamictal and topamax and it's bad! i'm super anxious and suicidal all the time. I've been on Lamictal almost 5 years, so obviously it's Topamax which I've been on 2 weeks.
Does anyone take Lamictal with another mood stabilizer?
I need help, please please help me. I'm going down. I've wanted to kill myself every day for a month now. I looked through my medication cabinet today, and I looked through it yesterday too. I keep feeling more hopeless.
Here is a description of me off of meds (which hasn't happened in over 5 years, I'm still way way better mentally than that):
constantly suicidal, crying every night, anxious, depressed mixed states-racing suicidal thoughts, major cutting and burning of myself. as far as mania, hypomanic, never full-blown mania but spending out of control, eating out of control, getting into debt, being a sh*tty person, saying things i don't mean or want to say, binge eating, throwing up, just being CRAZY.
I did really well for three years. I would say I literally had NO symptoms of mental illness. In the past 2 years, the Lamictal has slowly stopped being as effective. Now I would say that I have the symptoms of a person with clinical depression--which is, obviously, still better than before. But I am crying all the time, suicidal, isolating, not leaving my house except to work, sleeping for 14 hours, etc. It doesn't matter if it's better than before. It's too painful. My Dr. is nice but asks what I want because I've been taking RX since high school. So does anyone here have suggestions? or does anyone here have words of comfort?
because seriously, at some point, with mental illness, you don't have anyone to talk to anymore. i'm married, and my husband is great, but you know what? he can only hear me say i want to kill myself so many times. you know?
it. gets. boring.
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