Posted by Sky Brite Line on July 5, 2008, at 14:42:31
The sky is the only where to look to get away, and i know that just like a malfunctioned rocket that has failed many times, it just needs work.
All my failures has shown who i am as a person. Its a dreaded thing to look at all of them. The only thing sometimes, i just dress nice, and forget my god-given idenity because god did make mistakes, that or either he wants a mission for that person. But not everyone believes in god here. Just a word...
Pain can make you feel good, when i have broken down at night i feel at least a release of endorphins. I live in such a small world, small thoughts, small confidence, but i have big ambition to get better. I know, at least through my perception that i've always had to get advice, even from people my age, or talked down on by alot of people. I have said i've hated my life so many times, and i did and do, but there is still is a road to higher places, if you reach and believe.
I listen to simple music that at least has a message of goodness. Most music today is just tunes to get people a catch, some music messages have a good meaning.
If i continue to stay on path i am, i will continue to talk about how much i hate my life. So....where ever im looking, after humilation and rejection and the shock i've never felt before....i dont feel any thing hurt more, im numb. Thats proably the most important thing you can do is not think about yourself or others, just go numb, even in dispair where my hands are over my face, there will be tommorow.
Logging out for now...
poster:Sky Brite Line
thread:838212
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