Posted by AMY II on March 3, 2008, at 14:12:33
In reply to Re: PSYCOSIS!!! ANXIETY!!! OCD!!! WHAT???, posted by Basia on March 3, 2008, at 1:14:43
Thank you for your input. It has been helpful. I can deal with the possibility that I have HPPD, OCD (because of the gory horrific thoughts that I have that occur when I am in an "attack" or "episode", and acute anxiety disorder with panic disorder. geese. Here is the BIG one though that I just can't seem to get answers for.
The feelings. The physical feelings that I have when these things occur and just prior to them occuring. These physical feelings or "urges"? of just losing it. Going out of control. My mind is everywhere, and not the normal everywhere. It isn't thinking straight, is all over the place, and I feel like I have to sit still so I don't go crazy. I will sit on the couch or in bed with my husband and just lose it internally. I have these horrible feelings in my head. Physcial feelings, pressure, etc. (I have posted it all before here, it gets tiresome having to write it over and over again ya know?)
Not calm, pressure in the base of neck, my body feeling like it wants to jump out of my skin, rollercoaster type feelings, my brain feeling like it is being pulled up or "rising" from inside to the top of my skull. And the worse which is what seems to set the rest rolling is this...well the only way I can describe it is this swooshing all over my body like it feels when you free base cocaine or meth. It's not exactly like that and I don't like to use that analogy because it makes me sound like a junky, but it is kind of like that.
These feelings continue through these attacks and some are still there even after I take zanax. I am just scared to death that one day I am gonna be in one of these episodes and that I will never come out of it.
I think I should get on a med soon. Should I try clomipramine?
Should I take effexor again and just take the beta blocker for my high blood pressure, irregular heart beats and irregular ekgs it gives me? I almost feel like it would be worth it I swear.
I am just scared to death. I feel like the longer I am not on the medicine the harder it is going to be to fix me.
I have this thing going on with my arms now (had cortizone shots put in both elbows for tendonitis and a week after that I have these surges of adreneline running through them and I feel like I could do push ups all day and they would never tire, I can spin them round and round and shake them continuously and could do it all day. The only thing that works is hydrocodone or oxycodone. Tried requip, forget that stuff. I felt worse!!
I feel like maybe my mental illness is making it a bigger deal than it is, or maybe not.
I know I have NEVER felt this kind of stuff in my arms before and the doc said he could have got the shot into part of my muscle instead of my tendons and because cortizone is a steroid it could be giving me these symptoms. So how long does it take for the shot to wear off. It has been 6 weeks and I am going crazy.
What if he stops prescribing the hydrocodone for my arm bcause he thinks its all in my head because he knows I am seeing a pdoc now. ITS NOT! I hate taking pills anyway and would rather not have to take painkillers to sooth my arms. But that is what works.
I had acl replacement surgery in my knee in November so my body is use to having to take this hydrocodone and can tolerate it at high doses. I don't really even feel the dizzy feeling in my head anymore I can just feel the differene in my arms. I was on percocet for quite a while then down to 7.5 mg of hydrocodone. I have to take 4-6 a day.
I want this to end! I don't need to be worrying about my arms now. I will never get the shots again.
Could anybody find similar symptoms like this with cortizone shots?
poster:AMY II
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