Posted by your#1fan on February 27, 2008, at 22:12:26
Ok, im writing papers right now, but i have to tell psychobabble what has happened today that has caused me to take Xanax to just keep my emotions under control.
I went to the doctor, he already knew about the severe abuse that took place 2 years ago. He legally cannot treat me for ADHD anymore. There is documentation of my abuse with Stimulants, and i wrote a letter to him STATING the intensity of this problem. He couldnt do any thing, because of the law.
He cannot even give me Wellbutrin, or stimulants because he is liable if something happens, if i go psychotic, or die. Which is ABSOLUTELY OUT of the situation. It would never get like that. I almost wanted to say, well i take Xanax, i have no problem with it, and you still prescribe me a very high dose of it. Its the stimulants in the past i had very bad problems with, and it is in my medical documention. As many letters i can write to my doctor, he cannot do anything because he Liable legally, IF anything happens with overdose with Stimulants. This is absolutly CRAZY!
I told him over and over, i will take anything you decide, but please "dont let me go untreated" please! "im very sorry fan, but i cannot do this, and you will have to cope with life as it is" I cried in the session, i said why, how could this happen! he only said im "sorry".
This is absolutly devesting to me because, he called a lawyer and discussed issues that happened. He legally CANNOT treat for ADHD with anything at this point.
Now part of this is because i did make some wrong descions in the past, but this was nearly 3 years ago. And my mother took part in it because she does not WANT ME on any stimulant. She told him everything, so he now knows what abuse that did take place. He refuses to treat, i asked him everytime, i begged him, even wellbutrin? he said "your not going to tell me how to treat you" Well the man IS NOT EVEN treating me at all for a condition that effects my everyday life, and mood of my life, because constantly i lose keys, lose track, people often really think im "slow", or just stupid and cuss me out. Caused emotional distress.
Im telling you babblers, i have put on so many "psychological" masks to cope with this. Today was awful, i came home in almost crying because i know that i cannot be treated for something that is vitally important for me.
What im asking and BEGIGING you what am i going to do? this is a crisis, i've been having emotional outbursts because i feel im hopeless... even now worse than back in 2006! this is horrible.
I cant.....my life is so chaotic, and then i now have a doctor, who is influced by my mother against mainly stimulants. With documentation that there was abuse, this means that i never can be treated again my whole life.
Oh god, what im going to do? there is nothing i can do now. I feel like priviate "Sanitiago" in the "A Few Good Men"(1992) stating his condition was getting worse, and still he had no treatment, or concerns. And eventaully died. Well im not going to die, ill tell you that. But this is going to be one hard life issues for the rest of my life. Im scared!
logging out.... i wish you luck.
but who ever reads this, please tell me your going to be with me.
your#1fan
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