Posted by yxibow on December 3, 2007, at 0:06:23
In reply to Re: If you could go back - To questionmark » deniseuk190466, posted by Questionmark on November 29, 2007, at 23:27:11
> Hi Denise.
> These are questions i have thought about a lot. And i'm not sure about a lot of it. But i am fairly certain that i am one of those people who needed to be on something and who would overall do better with medication than without. .................
Well let's see... if I could go back, it wouldn't have been the beginning of the AIDS crisis and shame over being gay still existing quite strongly. I wouldn't have reacted to that, culminating (leaving out details) to one of the worst episodes of OCD seen, 7 hour showers, YBOCS nearly 40, etc. I would have still gone to a certain school X in Washington State and I would have had enough psychiatric support to stay there. I would have had a job when 9/11 hit and while I would have been miserable like the rest of the country I would have had nice friends and bounced back. Thus the current rare somatiform disorder would never exist and I wouldn't have had to take neuroleptics with unfun side effects to treat it, to this date "uncured" but mitigated in a guarded sense.
But it doesn't really do me justice to say oh, I want to go back to Washington at my graduation. Its almost 2008, my gosh and I have to live in the present. You can only live in the present. You will drive yourself into despair if you don't, and no, I'm not psychotic by any stretch of the word.
The sooner I accept my limitations and the sooner I recover from psychological trauma, the greater the chance I will have of the productive life I want. I may not be able to work 80 hours -- who needs the stress anyhow, not now anyway. But somehow through inside and goal oriented psychotherapy I can build a new and better me.
But that's just my story, in a nutshell.
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