Posted by tecknohed on September 17, 2007, at 15:30:50
dont know whats going on. i feel deeply depressed but cant/wont cry (i want to). I keep having massive bouts of rage at least once a day, usually more and i want to break/destroy/hurt something. anything. then in between its all dark. is this typical of bipolar? i thought the buspirone was working but what happened there? thought the lofepramine would help but cant get past 140mg/day. if i take the third pill (making 210mg/day) the rage gets worse. but it gets me up in the morning which i dont think i would do without it. only on 1.5mg/day clonazepam which i think making my depression worse but isnt enough for my social phobia cause i cant leave the house any more. my appetite is completely gone. my body is hungry but my mind feels sick at the thought of food. i have diabetes and coping is hard cause i have to eat or my insulin injections will send me into coma. i force feed myself chocolate bars wen my blood sugar is low. today i have less than 300 calories and been like that for weeks. dentist tomorow but cant go and have bad toothache. need to see my pdoc but thats not for 5 weeks. a gp wont want to touch my meds. i have some 5-htp - should i take some considering what else im on? things WERE getting better then pow! nothing. what is going on...?
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