Posted by waXweazle on July 10, 2007, at 13:07:58
Hi,
I have had a really tough day, tough few weeks. At one meeting i lost it inside with anxiety regarding a project i'm running and contributing to. I usually have the tools within to deal with feelings like this, but i guess i was just too tired and overworked and exposed. I'm 23 and i'm looking after the second biggest system in our company. With about 800 000 requests in 1 hour its very big. well, i hated the feeling surging through me in the meeting, i felt bare. I imagined walking back to my desk, slamming close my laptop and just taking off. I've also had some trouble sleeping of late. I jumped on my phone after the meeting and called my doctor, she didnt call back for 3 hours after and i kinda put the anxiety one side, it didnt go away, i was very aware of how i felt, but i kept my cool and carried on working with a smile, a fake one at that. When my doctor called i just stopped outside her office. We had a good chat, about all of it, work, the untamable complexities, the STRESS. I'm not sure if i overreacted, i'm generally happy, but i wanted something, a quick fix to this type of feeling. She prescribed Stresam 50mg (2 a day), i elected to take 30 instead of 60 just in case they dont work out. Its been 2 hours since I’ve taken the first one and it feels ok, no Euphoria, but i feel more relaxed. Perhaps i was hoping for some euphoria. i have a few skin crawls but that it, and a slightly 'thicker' movement scope.
Well, i'll take them through tomorrow and see...
Will check in then :)
poster:waXweazle
thread:768730
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