Posted by rjlockhart on February 12, 2007, at 19:38:21
I have been awfully, well not intesly but where im living at home is depressing.
I feel i dont have any will power or drive to do things i want to do. I feel i have beg, or ask over and over again to do things. I have gotten in many fights with conficting clashes with arguements, i mean yelling,
Maybe well, i have been told this many times before.
M-O-V-E O-U-T!
I have always heard the term respect your parents. I do but at the same consequece as to having to deal with this insanity that i live in.
I need will power bad. And overriding somethings that are values at home may be for my only benefit.
The enviorment itself is depressing, well i cant say exactly but it has turned into a place of not happiness. We have cats that stink up this place, omg i have to clean it up, ugh im going vomit just thinking of doing it later....
Responsibility is still a key essential to life, i have chores to do have to be done to keep a place going, living at home in a bad place or not. Still washing clothes, keeping things nice, i still admit i do have problems with that, but living with cat crap every where UGH!
I still clean it, even if i have to come in a space suit to clean up this crap.
Enough said, the reason im depressed at times, is because i feel i dont have control of my life, and im just drifting, and plus i dont have a therpist to even talk about this stuff with.
Ok, i have one imaginary friend, NO i dont see her, but i tell her what im going through, and i have seen progession by expressing myself to my own self! just through another projection. I usally talk to her after a bad day, because i have no one to talk to, but im litterly talking to myself and listening, and having compassion, and building CONFIDENCE!
I know that sounds really strange but thats how i have been getting through this with out a therpist and talking on psychobabble.
Please someone respond.
This is really long.....i know i dont know which board i should put it on.
Matt
poster:rjlockhart
thread:732258
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