Posted by ThaiClinch on January 8, 2007, at 2:01:28
In reply to Re: Nardil, stay the course, take care }} ace, posted by sdb on November 30, 2006, at 20:00:55
Congradulations Ace, looks like you found something that works for you. Was looking for the advice on everyone who knows a little about either Nardil or Mania. Perhaps you could brainstorm a solution that would also help other people too. Thankyou,
Anyways, Will try to shorten this 2 1/2 year mini-biography as short as much, ThaiClinch: Tried 14 different anti-depressants, has treatment resistant depression for 2.5 years, tried Nardil it worked somewhat but went manic before experiencing the positive parts. Anyways, I original took a dose of 60mg-75mg which made me slightly hypomanic, but enough so to forget how many pills I was taking, it also made me hypomanic enough to start researching wierd stuff and somewhat paranoid. 60mg no longer does that so maybe the brain healed up, adapted, or because I gained weight?
After forgetting the number of pills (which may have varied from 75-115, lack the memory of that time), I discovered that I had may be having a cardiac event(when in truth it was probably mania making me believe it so). In that stage, I believed I was likely too die, because of this I remained as calm as possible and called the doctor several times who was not there, and then his secretary and his pager, which were not there. Then dialed 9/11 and they showed up. I started regaining my sanity, however they took me to a hospital and I started to act very aggressively toward a counselor and policemen(which was simultaneously both manic and stupid). Was cuffed and then went out for about 3 days. Apparently friends said I was seeing tigers, ramming doors and trying to escape. So I was sent to a Mental Institution, which I remember very little of. After which I got out 1 day before my birthday as I recall.
10 months later....after trying numerous more failed anti-d's and augmentations, The psychiatrist nardil might be worth a try because me going into nearly a 10 month long resistant deep depression and anxious state again(he is a good man, but very slow with things) got so he finally tried nardil at a lower dosage and got up to 60mg after about 13 weeks. Presently feel more motivated, my mood is kind of flat but better than deep depression, and my anxiety hasn't changed, but Im more confident because I have the energy to get out of bed and get and read books and train. So about 60% of my old self. The problem is finding a way to getup to 75mg without becoming hypomanic(which would be great if there is such thing as a rational hypomanic let me know) or mania.
His solution is to wait, wait, and wait and maybe increase half a pill, increase and alot of Zyprexa, which removes my motivation for about 17 hours of the day. It's smart from a safety and not taking any risks perspective, but not for a "getting undepressed" one. He is more open to increasing the dosage, but only if taking alot of Zyprexa.
Not looking for euphoria or being high. Just a way to be somewhat close to how I was before the depression, which was outgoing person, well-read (I like to imagine, with enough sense to realize everybody is better than me at something.
Anyways, are there any meds that don't work like Zyprexa and other anti-psychotics that block dopamine and seretonin by making you sluggish? Heard keeping busy, and taking a ton of omega 3 oil helps brain health and keep someone rational. But even 1 of your collective smarts is alot more than me. If 4-5 of you could come up with some kind of plan that would be far more helpful then just me and my psychiatrist trying to figure out something for another 2.5 years. Thankyou Ace, other fellow members your help is very much appreciated and if I can return the favor Ill be pleased to do it.
ThaiClinch
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