Posted by Jedi on November 11, 2006, at 2:31:42
In reply to Re: Nardil - night eating - anyone else ?, posted by petel on November 10, 2006, at 12:51:34
> > > Hi
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> Apologies for the late reply:
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> and thanks for the advice. You say you have "atypical depression with social and generalized anxiety." ? That is almost a mirror image of my original diagnosis. I remember one of the first physical "symptoms" were severe sel conciousness and blushing - ruined all of my teenage years and a lot of my twenties. Did you go through anything similar ? Am sure mine is related to an overbearing father - but you cannot go blaming someone for everything for the rest of your life - though I do try :-)
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> all the very best PeterHi Peter,
Yes, your teenage years and twenties sound very similar to mine. I succeeded in most everthing I attempted, but that was not enough to break through the early social anxiety and dysthymia. My father was also somewhat overbearing. If I got an A- on a report card, the response was why didn't you get an A. Like you, I have really tried to give up blaming other people for my problems. The only way I can change something is if I take the responsibility for it.I am almost fifty now and the major depression didn't really hit until I was forty. But the early, untreated social anxiety and dysthymia did take a great toll on me. In high school, I was so fearful of rejection, I couldn't even ask a girl out. I went to college back in the seventies and attempted to self-medicate with alcohol and pot. Only by some miracle did I not kill myself or someone else during these years.
By the time I was twenty-five I had given up the booze and pot and became a full fledged workaholic. I made and lost millions of dollars in computers and real estate. This went on for about fifteen years until the first major depression hit me at forty. Actually my largest financial loses correspond almost exactly with my first major depression. Since then, life has been a real struggle. Probably over forty different combinations of meds now. Nardil with clonazepam is the only thing that really helps. No meds are perfect, but they keep me at a point where I can at least function.
I wish I would have had the common sence to get some help in my earlier years, maybe the major depressions would not have been as bad. Then again, there is a large genetic component to my depression, so maybe nothing would have helped.
The way I look at it now is that you play the hand you are delt. There are a lot of people worse off than me.
Take care,
Jedi
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