Posted by Rjlockhart on October 25, 2006, at 20:05:45
In reply to Re: i am double slammed, posted by laima on October 25, 2006, at 19:18:04
Yes,
I have abused stimulants in the past. Yes i have. I have been on prescription amphetamine for almost 10 years, i've operated on it. But i wanted to learn to, and told my psyhiatrist that i would take it responsibly, but listen its all about my mother controling me, she is telling me to drop courses, drop out of school because you are not going on any medication for ADHD. Do you see why i am so, such a wreck. Im at school right now, i cant post at home if she see's me posting she will literally ban me from computer usage.
To everyone who skeptical here is you information.
I went to the doctor and told him that i have a presentation and exams coming up, and i have ADHD, and i am failing. He prescribed me dextrostat. I took it later that day for class did fine, but my mother found it, yes, i guess that i overeacted in emotion, but i am still going through a horrible time. Do you understand, my mother? i have told you that i have abused in the past,
I just talked to a social worker 15min ago here at school, who is actually my teacher. I am having a manic episode right now, and i dont think taking dexedrine would be the best option either, even if i was taking it right now. Right now im hypomanic. I feel im in a diffrent reality. I feel an egg has cracked over my head and im flouting.
I cant go home, my parents will abuse me, i dont know, maybe a hotel? I left home crying hard, my mom didnt care, and she said if you want to commit suicide than do it! This is why im not feeling im going home.
There are many people here that are skeptical of me,...dbt? [notfred] but if you only knew what horrid enviorment i am living in, even before this, i have to get out. This just triggered an emotional response. If you saw what has happened, emotional breakdowns, yelling, screaming, tearing into eachother at home, the destructiveness. You would maybe see why i have ran here for help.
This is the only place that i can get help, advice, my theripst is only 45min, he has told me to get away from my mother many times.
Please be here with me. I am trying to keep myself together, but i cant let myself let go.
Matt
poster:Rjlockhart
thread:697094
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