Posted by SLS on July 16, 2006, at 19:20:33
In reply to Re: lamictal not working?, posted by ciaolavida on July 16, 2006, at 16:08:58
> Scott-
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> When I'm depressed I can hardly get out of bed. When I'm manic I can't stop moving (my foot literally shakes like crazy if I'm told to sit still.) It's pretty awful, I'm not going to lie! I didn't realize ultradian was so rare, though. I've only been getting treatment the past 6 weeks (when I started on the lamictal). I'm supposed to get back into college in 5 weeks and my psychiatrist is 100% totally and completely convinced that I'll be ready (I think he must be the single most optomistic man to walk to planet) and, depending on my mood, I can either agree or disagree. The point is though, I could never handle school like this. My mood can literally go to the polar opposite in the snap of a finger. I've heard horror stories of people who can't get back to normal for years. Ugh! I can't imagine dealing with this that long. Last night I wanted to go to the hospital because I was feeling suicidal but today I want to go on a road trip so you just never know! Actually a few hours ago I was ready to go to the hospital again. Yea, it's really difficult for me but also takes a huge toll on my mother who has to deal with "don't leave me! LETS GO TO AFRICA! Wait, you don't like me do you? GO AWAY. Why are you talking to me?" All within a few minutes. I can't imagine what it must be like to be her. Okay sorry I'm rambling so I'm gonna just shut up now.
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> Moral of the story, lamictal isn't doing it. At least not alone, and I don't know what's going to help but I need to figure it out in 4 weeks, 6 days and counting...
I am glad that you decided to stop by and pay us a visit here at Psycho-Babble. You are probably the first bona-fide ultradian rapid-cycler I have encountered here. I hope your cycling disappears just as suddenly as it appeared. Rapid cycling is not so much a subtype of bipolar disorder as it is a phase in its course. For me, it lasted approximately two years. However, during those two years, it was dramatic and extraordinarily regular. I could keep a calendar by it. In the long-term, my guess is that this phase will be temporary for you. However, I can't guess as to how long it will last or whether or not it will be self-limiting in the short-term. Let's hope your doctor's optimism is justified.You sound pretty spunky. I have a feeling you are going to beat this thing. There might be a bit more of the ride to come, so hold on...
- Scott
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