Posted by frizzaldizzal on June 14, 2006, at 22:03:49
In reply to Re: homocidal thoughts to misunderstanings to people » rjlockhart, posted by KayLen on June 14, 2006, at 13:03:31
I dont know what you have been diagnosed with, so I cant tell you if you are that way possibly due to your illness, but I do the same thing. I have homocidal thoughts about people and yes it gives me pleasure. I dont feel bad about it. I am Bipolar II. I used to fight the illness, but now I just go with it. I used to be very upset because I was so differant than anyone else I knew. I was like, Whats wrong with me? Now I know whats wrong and I enjoy being different. I actually think it is funny because most people that look at me would not think that I would ever have the thoughts that I do. While I am talking to someone I am thinking, If you only knew. Keeping it to myself is part of the fun. I have educated myself about the illness, and now I am totally comfortable with it. I read all the time about the illness, and medication and so on. The more I know, the more I understand myself and life is easier. Dont trip out about it to much. It absolutely does not mean that you are a bad person. I totally know I am a good person. Besides, think about it, if you where a bad person, would you be worring about being a bad person? No, I doubt it.
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