Posted by rustynail on June 1, 2006, at 6:14:34
This is my first post here.
For the last four weeks been on 10mgs of Selegiline. I have tried just about everything and generally go to the doctor and convince him that this or that medication is worth a try. Mostly I get what I want, which may be good or may be bad, but thats the risk I take. Before Selegiline I was desperate and convince him for a script of Parnate only to find out at the last minute that its an unknown with asthma( of which sometimes is great and sometimes is really bad) So ditched the Parnate and ended up with Selegiline. Before all this my most recent venture was into Zyprexa, scribed by pdoc. 2 months later on 10 mgs was a total suicidal zombie and nearly lost my job as I spent my days trying to work out what it was I was actually doing. Before zyprexa 6 months on Endep which eventually made me brain dead and craving alcohol to the point of drinking a bottle a night. Before that was on edronax (6 months) but the side effects were to much to bear. All of these did little to assist with the constant nagging depression/mania/concentration/motivation issues that I have had all my life. Prior to the Edronax I tried ssri/snri/lithium and they did no good. This is over a 15 year period.The usual scenario is I go into the agreement of a new med without expectation, then find there is some sort of change after a few weeks followed by stability for a week or so then crash back to where I was before. So as you can imagine this life cycle has been really frustrating and at times when I have had total despair I have admitted myself into hostpital to stop me doing stupid things like driving my car into a wall or jumping off a height. Anyway thats a bit of background. I have been diagnosed with depression, bipolar type 1 and 11. Some doctors have said that i cant be treated while others are to quick to make an assesment. I believe I have adult ADD and untreated for all these years has lead me to this place I am in today. I have tried dex amphetamine for a few weeks and by far this was the best thing for me that I have ever tried. Though I got it illegally and can not find a doctor that will prescribe it.Ok to my question. Selegiline has proven so far to be kind of the answer. It has definately pulled me out of my depression after the first 2 weeks.though the first 2 weeks i was vomitting hard in the mornings upon waking but I generally do this on meds anyway so I just rode it out. That has subsided somewhat. My concentration has improved beyond my wildest dreams and motivation is getting better everyday.I feel more in control and stable than I have ever felt. There are no side effects to note except in the initial ability to get an erection. Once stimulated though there is no problems.( maybe I am just getting older).
Ok so I have suffered from anxiety constantly all my life and have developed techniques to keep it under control. However with Selegiline I feel there is an underlying anxiety that is there and would like to take something to smooth it out.I like the energy levels and all the benefits of this drug and if there was something (not benzodiazapam) that would do the trick that would be swell. Any suggestions? The interesting thing for me is I had no anxiety on the dexamphetamine. I think if I could get that I would be good but it is really really hard..
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