Posted by detroitpistons on May 30, 2006, at 11:43:31
Everytime anything happens to me that is outside of my regular life routine, I think about it constantly. For example, if I get into a serious fight with somebody, I can't stop thinking about it. I will go over and over it in my mind, and I rehearse what I'm going to say to that person next time I see them.
My mind is like a broken record. I obsess and worry about things, even little things. When I'm depressed, I especially worry about every little thing.
But even when something good (or neutral) happens to me, I'll even think about that to no end. I don't have to be depressed to ruminate...anxiety and rumination can remain.
I've always thought that I have GAD, so anxiety about random things is a given for me. I've also been diagnosed with bipolar II and possibly ADD.
My doctor suggested that I may have OCD, but I don't really have compulsions. I looked into pure obsessive or "pure o," but I don't obsess about things in the context of being "scared" of something. I don't have the phobia type of obsessions described as symptoms of pure o.
There is one thing that I do that me be considered compulsive. But again, it's not in response to something that I'm afraid of....There is really bad traffic where I live, and it's very random. The time it takes to get home from work is not consistent. It's either a long time, or a really long time. Every day I set my stopwatch to record the time it takes me to get to or from work from the time I leave until the time I arrive. As I'm driving, I divide the time by the number of miles travelled to determine if I'm on pace to get to home/work in the "normal" time range. When I arrive, I almost always check the total travel time. Is this normal or obsessive? I also talk a lot about my commute (as if it's the focus of my attention) and one person basically said that I think about it too much.
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