Posted by blueberry on April 12, 2006, at 18:42:28
Why is that everything I try seems powerfully overpotent and sends me into a much deeper depression almost immediately?
I've been a wreck since stopping zyprexa 2 months ago. Daily cycles of deep depression or fierce anxiety/terror, but never at the same time. Cycles happen 1 to 3 times a day. What is this?
Restarted zyprexa for 2 days. The first day was such a relief. Everything fine. But the second day, massive deep depression.
Doc gave me lamictal with high hopes. Just 12.5mg felt like a dump truck landed on me. Extremely deep depression within 4 hours that lasted 2 solid days (but the anxiety was gone).
Xanax...my old friend that never lets me down...awesome antianxiety and antidepression. But now, it only calms the body but the terror remains, and it makes me very very depressed.
Lexapro...never was good as an antidepressant for me, but half decent for anxiety. 5 days at 2.5mg has calmed anxiety, but again I am plunged into such a deep despair of depression.
In emergency situations (like going to company conventions), I take about 1mg cymbalta (yeah, just 1mg of the norepinephrine stuff) along with .25mg xanax 4 times a day, along with 1.25mg zyprexa 2 times a day. And I'm perfectly fine. I am now thinking to throw caution to the wind and just do it. I've never done it for more than 4 days though, so who knows how long it would last, or even if it would work again.
I can't take it anymore! I don't get it! I can understand when meds don't help depression. But when all of them seem to make it profoundly incredibly worse almost right away, that is scary. I'm terrified to put any pill in my mouth now, and equally terrified not to. Trapped. These daily or hourly cycles are pure nightmares. I have never felt so hopeless.
What's going on?
poster:blueberry
thread:632304
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