Posted by joslynn on March 30, 2006, at 15:19:43
In reply to remeron or wellbutrin??? confused!, posted by SLIPAWAY on March 30, 2006, at 9:42:53
I forgot to answer you about the depersonalization thing.
After being on and off Remeron for about four years (with maybe two years of not being on it at various points) I am now in an "on Remeron" stretch and do not feel depersonalized. I am trying to remember if I felt that way when I was first on it. The depression made me feel depersonalized before meds, that is for sure. I felt like I was dragging my "self" behind me on a thin, tattered string. But after Remeron, I still feel like "me," except not so hypersensitive to rejection/criticism/loss and not so obsessive. Or is that the therapy that helped with that?
I definitely feel like "me" though. I went back on Remeron to supplement the lexapro when I had a moderate episode of depression a little over a year ago (when I was on Lexapro alone). Once I went back on Remeron, I started feeling better quite quickly. But was that because of the Remeron, or would I have felt better anyway? There are not exact answers.
One thing I can surmise, for me, is that when I feel like I may be heading towards a relaspe, if I go back on Remeron, I feel like I get yanked off that edge towards solid ground pretty fast. So eventually I just decided, heck, I am just going to stay on Remeron rather than going on, off, on, off etc just because of a little weight gain.
I only gained about 10 pounds and I have decided that it's worth it. On just Lexapro, there have been times when depression has still managed to break through, but that doesn't happen when I am on both.
Of course, other times I think, maybe I don't need these meds at all and I can just taper off. But I am not going to try that yet.
Well, those are my Remeron experiences. Emotionally and mentally, I feel really good, better than ever in my life, but whether that is because of meds or therapy or life changes or a combo of all those things, I do not know. Ultimately I think it's because of God.
(However, on Remeron, I feel like diving into a warehouse of chocolate-covered donuts on a pretty regular basis, LOL. Through much willpower, I haven't gained too much, but it's hard.)
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