Posted by Devastated Mother on February 5, 2006, at 9:46:01
In reply to Re: Suicide on Effexor, posted by simon levane on February 4, 2006, at 12:23:10
"I feel as if she was "stolen" from us due to this completely flippant and care-me-not attitude of the doctors. My close friends tell me that she and I would have found one another again. We had shared a lot of joy and laughter together"
This part of the comment you made was particularly meaningful to me, as it absolutely states exactly how I feel. I am sure your daughter would have grown into a wonderful young woman, as much as I am sure my son would have been a terrific adult, father, uncle, brother...
On the other hand, every time I say the Lord's Prayer, I think of Al, a friend of ours who on his deathbed in his dying gift to his young children (I think they were 6 and 11), shared the meaning of this prayer. We are none of us promised long life, and the knowledge that our children shared unspeakable pain gives me hope that they were welcomed into His house with rejoicing. This alone sustains me and allows me to continue living, else I would have to die, taking the good doc with me. I am also blessed to be a teacher and I minister to His other children every day of my life, and will continue to do so for as long as He sees fit to leave me on this good earth. The teens of all sorts that I watch every year grow and change into adults are the reason I know that yours and mine could have become comfortable adults, given the chance.
My daughter, at his funeral, asked during the service if she could sing for her brother (we had not planned this as part of the service). She said she didn't mean in church, but by the grave. I told her to just bring a song book and it would be fine, and asked what she wanted to sing. Together she and I sang "You are Mine". Nothing in my life has touched me more, and it gives me peace today knowing that for that brief time, she and I together recognized God's power over us all.
So, does this help? At times...at times all of it does. And at times nothing does. At times screaming and tearing my hair out would help.
Still devastated mother....
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