Posted by SeekingAdvice on September 29, 2005, at 17:23:43
In reply to Re: Does Ectasy Cause Brain Damage and Depression?, posted by ed_uk on September 29, 2005, at 14:15:17
I did ecstasy on most (not all) weekends for about 2 years, maybe less. If I couldn't get ecstasy I got cocaine, mushrooms, or whatever. There were drug free weekends somewhere in there. Just more drugs in those 2 years than not. You get the picture….
At the time, I made excellent grades and was pretty well-balanced. It wasn't until I got off of it that I had problems with depression and anxiety. I think that it messed up something in my brain. It felt like I used up all my happiness during those 2 years. Like even the reserves were depleted. I felt basically apathetic until I went on meds. I don't know if it was the drugs. And I really hope they didn't have long term effects on me.
One thing I did notice that is weird is that I cannot handle SSRI's. They make me so elated that I want to drink, smoke and just go nuts. I wonder if that is from damaging a part of my brain (dopamine, serotonin- whatever). I know that I used to tolerate SSRI's in the pre-drug use years. (My mom thought I was depressed as a teen. I didn't think so.)
Interesting posts. I'm eager to hear more.
Love,
SeekingAdvice
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