Posted by rjlockhart98 on August 29, 2005, at 21:29:08
Lately i have been having a hard time keeping it with my self. Well my mind, thoughts. I feel unstable, stimulants seem to stablize somewhat, but i still dont know.
Thoughts feel off balance, like sea sick. I dont know how to describe it. Smoking has not helped, i am going to quit becuase i feel even worse after.
There is defintly some dopamine flow, but it's maybe off balance. I take Zyprexa, but may need to increase.I feel fear, mainly becuase the circumstances that are present in life, my mom is unstable, stress to succeed, fear of failure, collage. And desicions what i am going to do with my life, should i become what i want? then not want.
Stimulants do seem to stablize temporarly this feeling of breakdown.Right now i feel unstable even talking about it.
This is why i have always wanted to get a MRI or something.I dont really know what else to say.
But thanks if you respond.
Matt
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