Posted by Enigma on August 18, 2005, at 8:57:38
In reply to I am miserable!, posted by AMD on August 17, 2005, at 11:47:54
You're lucky you have a job. I'm on LTD for depression. Thanks to my company's policy, after 4 months of being off work (3 months were short term), they re-fill your position. So, I don't think I'll be cured in that time frame, so bye-bye job. I'm too sick to get a job anywhere else, and have no confidence, spirit, etc, to interview anywhere else. I'm screwed, as is my family now.
Anyway, this is about you, not me. I never did drugs. Always too afraid of them, and afraid of losing control. I drink rarely, but since I'm on maoi's, drinking makes me feel horrible, phsysically and mentally.
I'd check into rehab somewhere and get your life back together. At least your job can't fire you if you do rehab.
> Folks,
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> I am absolutely miserable today, having the hardest time even focusing at work, feeling sad, depressed, and sick. Ugh.
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> I feel like I've done so much damage to my brain these past few months, drinking and doing cocaine, and maybe methamphetamine once or twice, and it just hit me today ... wow! This is not casual use, this is addiction. So I'm panicking now thinking, ugh, I've become one of those stories, one of those sad cases people frown upon, and it's making me so sad.
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> Has anyone recovered from this type of thing? Does the depression subside, or stay with you for life? Does your brain heal? Or have I dug myself a hole so deep that escaping from it even with a ladder or the help of a friend's shoulders will be unlikely?
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> (For the record, I started AA last week ... but that hasn't helped the depression. I have bipolar II disorder.)
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> So sad.
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> amd
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