Posted by ed_uk on June 10, 2005, at 11:04:00
In reply to Feedling desperate, posted by pretty_paints on June 10, 2005, at 10:05:01
Hello Katie,
I'm sorry to hear that things are so hard atm :-( Have a hug....
((((((Pretty)))))
>I believed we were in love with each other and the thoughts and daydreams consumed me ALL the time. To the point of non-functioning. We hardly were in touch at all, but in my mind he was sending me signals and signs.
It sounds like an erotomanic delusion. Erotomanic delusions can be a symptom of psychosis. An erotomanic delusion is when someone falsely believes that another person is in love with them, often a stranger.>Then when I got to 30mg Abilify, it was like someone just switched a switch off. ALL my feelings just stopped dead. I realised I wasn't in love with him, and now didn't even particularly like him. Then my meds were messed around with and it happened with my consultant pdoc and then that faded, then now it's happened BIG TIME with my pdoc.
I think you saw your pdoc on Monday. Are you going to try a different antipsychotic?
>So I thought I need to tell her about these feelings. So I did and she was fine about it.
I don't think you need to worry. Pdocs are used to this. I think your feelings for her will decrease when your antipsychotic treatment has been optimised :-)
>SO BASICALLY SHE IS SAYING THAT IF I LOOSE INSIGHT, SHE WILL BE OFF!
That's not what she's saying! She saying that if your love for hear is not a psychotic symptom (which I think it is), you might do better with a different pdoc.
>I know for sure tho that a lot of the stuff she says is psychosis is just her way of trying to protect her company (who are monitoring me).
Doesn't she work for the NHS?
>Anyway the point is - what if I loose insight about this? Will she just LEAVE me?
If your psychosis gets worse and you loose insight, I think it will be obvious to your pdoc - she has a lot of experience. She will know that your love for her is a psychotic symptom because your other psychotic symptoms will also have got worse.
>My pdoc wants me to go into hospital. I cant at the mo as I'm supposed to be going on holiday in a week.
Can your parents cancel the holiday? Your parents care much more about your health than about the holiday. You are precious to them :-)
>I don't want to go in as it will be too easy for them to keep monitoring me..........
They will monitor your symptoms when you're in hospital. The EEG will rule out any 'medical' problems which could be contributing to your symptoms. You'll feel much better once you've got your medication fixed.
>Now I feel so scared of pnurses, I know they'll be horrible to me if I go in hospital again.
You'll probably meet some new pnurses. Even if you don't like them, please tell them the truth about how you are feeling and what you are thinking. They will be able to help you. I know hospital is boring but there's no need to be scared of it.
>So does anyone know about the protocal if a patient tells his pdoc that he's in love with her?
I don't think there is an official protocol. Your pdoc will use her own judgement to decide what to do.
>My pdoc says this "falling in love" feeling is a symptom of psychosis, has anyone ever had it?? She says it's not a common one, but that it definately exists.
She's right :-)
OK, four things that you *definitely* need to tell your pdoc........
1. 'I don't want to go in (to hospital) as it will be too easy for them to keep monitoring me and carrying out their special project on me. '
2. 'I know for sure tho that a lot of the stuff she says is psychosis is just her way of trying to protect her company (who are monitoring me).'
3. That you think the people from your school are controlling you.
4. 'So I mentioned NO to all the questions, even when the answers I believed were YES.'
Lots of love,
Ed xxxxxxxx
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