Posted by iforgotmypassword on May 31, 2005, at 20:43:23
In reply to Re: How are you doing now? » iforgotmypassword, posted by Maxime on May 29, 2005, at 15:08:58
i am less desperate but i had a really rough time on the weekend and visited the emergency room because i couldnt stop myself from destroying my apartment. god i don't know what's wrong with me i go from hardly being able to stand or think to not being able to control myself. ive still been to scared and lazy to try the parnate with the desipramine, though i finally have a blood pressure monitor to use. oh god i dont know what i am going to do. i have an exam tomorrow and i can barely get myself to follow the words on a page of the books im trying to study. :( i can't get myself to do anything, my clothes are filthy, i'm starting to smell and there is nothing that gives me the slightest pleasure but my useless hanging off the company of other people who i really dont think of as friends. my mum lived and died like this, never being able to want or aspire to experience anything in this world, to just rot, and i am just the same.
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