Posted by corafree on May 16, 2005, at 23:01:14
In reply to Re: Effexor w/ Traz or Remeron; better sleep Cora, posted by Sabino on May 16, 2005, at 19:34:11
I think I really experience life as it is now, instead of standing back and watching it. I mean, if I'm lonely,...it's because I really have a right to be; I've been alone too long! If I'm bored, its kind of fun to sit back and wait for someone else to drop the emotional ball - it always used to be me. Maybe the mood stabilizers were what I needed all along; I just don't have clear symptoms of bipolar!? The weight gain, well I don't know what it is about them that make you feel so ravenous you reach for the closest edible thing?!? But, I used to exercise, and I know I could distribute this weight w/ a run 3x a week. Unfortunately doc says I have to fast walk now. I used to laugh at seeing people fast walk, ya' know looks like they have to go to the bathroom and are too embarrassed to run ... ha! Guess I'll have to join the fast walkers or find another form of inexpensive exercise. You should know that my nerves were fried ... that was what the breakdown was all about. Besides the two 'so-called' mood stabilizers, I am on a long-acting benzo. I haven't had an anxiety or panic attack since this whole regimen change. And, that/they were a big prob'. My suicidal ideation has all but gone away. But, now, I'm 53-y/o, and I don't know if this regimen would have been what I needed 20yrs ago. I'll never know. I do know the breakdown and docs who changed me from ADs to mood stabilizers and a long-acting benzo saved my life. My life is pretty lonely, but part of that is me. I'm very picky and have been through a lot of abuse, so am mistrustful and fearful. I have a nice therapist right now ... no heavy stuff. Sometimes I'll take 100mg Seroquel to sleep and sometimes feel I need 200mg. I've not yet (seems like forever) found a good P. See a temp. this week. I've got questions about the need for two stabilizers. Whoa, like you wanted to hear my life story...huh? I'm trying to fast the remainder of this day. I had a good sandwish at lunch. This place, someone/you asking how I'm doing, is great therapy. I'm having some trouble w/ this old computer though, but children are trying to help me keep it running. They know I've got to have my computer! best wishes, me
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