Posted by D minor on April 14, 2005, at 0:34:54
I've made up my mind. I'm going back to the Topamax. I stopped it because I felt like it made me feel sort of "blah." But I was looking back over my mood charts for the past six months and I found a pattern. Every time I stopped my mood stabilizer I became depressed, or manic, or both. So, duh, logical conclusion: I need a mood stabilizer. My pdoc wouldn't put me back on the Topamax when I asked him because I had been non-compliant. But I just made a contract with myself that I would give it a try for at least one month. I'm going to start tonight. When I see him I'll appoligize for being non-compliant. He wanted me on the Topamax anyway.
I stopped the Topamax because my parents said they liked me better with ups and downs than just blah. But I've decided that I like me better not suicidal. I don't like the hypomania enough to continue facing the depression.
Just letting y'all know what's up. Wish me luck!
dm
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