Posted by Shy_Girl on April 13, 2005, at 1:01:30
In reply to Re: No more meds and I feel good! » Shy_Girl, posted by Maxime on April 13, 2005, at 0:16:44
> ((( Shy-Girl ))) You are very sweet. But I really am happy! Some people don't recover from depression or ever respond to meds. I'm just one of those people.
I'm really glad you're happy. It really doesn't matter why, just enjoy it I say. :-)
> And I also made other people happy because they saw expression in my face and I was fun and funny and I made people laugh! I'm a people pleaser so that made me even happier.
(Smile) I think beneath it all, I'm a people pleaser too. I've just learned to avoid people because I've learned my unease makes others uncomfortable. It's great to have happy people around when one is happy.
>But then the depression came back worse than ever and people became sad or upset. Many friends left me. They said "Maxi, you are taking all these pills you should be well".
All those "shoulds," it must be hard for people to understand how such a seemingly unlikely thing as treatment resistant depression can occur. Anything is possible with biology, nothing is for sure....don't know why, this made me think of HeLa cell lines, a type of immortalized cervical carcinoma cell, taken from a woman name Henrietta Lacks...who died in 1951, but forever lives in some way...serving science, to this day.
>So now I am free from all that. Not the depression of course or the eating disorder ... but the struggle of trying to please everyone. The stuggle of trying meds that make me sick or psychotic or lactate or break out into hives. I don't have that burden anymore. It's gone now. I don't have to see doctors who don't listen to me. I just have to check in with them, so they feel like they are doing their duty by at least seeing me. They can be free of guilt. I'm no longer a burden.
Just do whatever feels right. I'm glad you are at peace. Who knows, maybe your body will adjust for the better without all the psych meds.
All the best
Shy_Girl
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