Posted by Mr.Scott on April 6, 2005, at 13:16:25
So I just discontinued adderall after a 3.5 month love affair with it yesterday. It came closer to curing my ills than any other substance illicit or prescribed that I've ever used. The problem however is that I needed to keep pushing the dose about 10mg per month until I reached 40mg. And then sadly it began to stop working. All I got was increased anxiety, tension, sexual dysfunction, and agitation. And I wasn't going to keep pushing the dose (my doctor wasn't going to keep pushing the dose either!)Anyways... Should I expect a little backlash? I feel depressed and tired, and like I'm headed back to depression which is where I was prior to starting it. I left work early today. I am filled with negative thoughts and fears, but I can't tell if this is a return or a rebound.
The biggest problem is that during that 3.5 months I began to think everything might actually be okay and picked up a girlfriend. I am now consumed by fear that she will not care for the depresso as much as the adderall stud. I guess the true test will come when I ask her to take me too and from ECT appointments!
Anyways I feel like curling up and sleeping and meanwhile both fear and negativity abound.
Scott
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