Posted by mmcconathy on March 9, 2005, at 21:47:55
In reply to Re: ok, im back on adderall/ i need someone to tal, posted by Maxime on March 6, 2005, at 21:52:55
Maxime, i sturugle with trying to keeping to it together, i feel at times i am so withdrawln that i have lost my self of identity, everything, mentally deteriating.
I dont know hwat i am, who am i, where i go. I put up euphoric posts, but after they are over, like now, i dont feel anything, i dont feel as i exist. I hate being a teenager going throught problems i dont know what the hell they are, i know i am socially maladjusted. I dont want to go to it. These are primitive problems to you since your 36, well according to your posts.
Where i am i? i hate who i am, this is the flat truth, i always comedown to this point of realization how abnormal i am.
I want to get away, with something, i confess i look for something that will make this misery go away for just a while, anything. I have already abused the hell out of amphetmaines, they are out. I need i point of realization to myself, get out of this barren, i have never had fit in, i dont appear like it.
I am really going down right now....
I do listen to advice, its pressures that stop me from getting help, my mom is broderline, she has rages, raging coming home how horrible her day was, screams about her problems with bills.
I dont know what else to put im not with reality right now, i just want to be normal, stable social life, stableness. Why is this chaos clinged to me.
Im sorry, dont mind this, life has many views that can be perciefed, i want to get out of this, and get a grip.
Misery
M
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