Posted by Mistermindmasta on January 26, 2005, at 12:06:23
Hey, I was wondering this... I seem to have EXTREME sensitivities to the effects of mind altering drugs, particularly those that induce some form of euphoria. I feel that my reactions to caffeine and alcohol are abnormally strong - I seem to experience euphoric states of mind from caffeine and alcohol that most other people don't seem to experience. Other normal people don't seem to have issues from alcohol withdrawal from a few nights of binge drinking - I get very bad dysphoria and I get very angry sometimes. I also feel like my cognitive abilities suffer far too much while in withdrawal - can't concentrate, very demotivated. This might be a somewhat normal response to some degree, but mine seems extreme. It's very dysfunctional. I look around at other people and wonder how they function the day after getting drunk. For my brain its like night and day. For caffeine, it's like I can't accomplish anything really big and drawn out without caffeine (guess I'm ADD too), but when I'm on a good caffeine buzz, I feel like I can accomplish anything. Again, it's like night and day. But then with the withdrawal, it severely effects my life. I don't get it. I'm thinking this might be a symptom of BPII? Can someone have such extreme sensitivities to drugs without being BPII?? Can such dysfunctional reactions be normal?
By the way, I also have had mild hypomanic-like reactions from Rhodiola and St. John's Wort - I've been angrier than I've ever been while on St. John's Wort and I've never felt more disinhibited than when I was on Rhodiola. The feeling of being more relaxed around is nice, but it seems extreme, to the point where I almost regret some things I say.
I never have had a full manic episode but I seem to suffer from some very odd moods often times, which is often brought on by mind altering drugs that don't seem to have the same effects in other people. I'm very artistic and creative too - I'm a very prolific songwriter, so that's a temperamental trait that leads me to believe I have at least a few things in common with BPII traits. When I'm in a hypomanic-ish mood, thats when I write songs. That's when the melodies in my head and the ideas flow out smoothest...
Anyway, that's all. Thanks for reading and any input.
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