Posted by dancingstar on October 17, 2004, at 19:24:57
In reply to I can't hold on...., posted by jerrympls on October 17, 2004, at 1:52:10
Hey Jerry,
I don't know anything about your background, but if you've been quitting Effexor I know you must be very brave. I've never been through anything so painful.
I do believe in God, not in the traditionally religious way, but probably more than most people, certainly as much as the most traditionally religious types. Every time I think I know the answer to something, every time I give up completely, every time I am disappointed beyond all hope, it seems as though some hardly visible ray of light peaks in from somewhere I couldn't have imagined. It's usually curiosity that allows me to open the door, a door that sets me off in a direction that I couldn't have planned and never would have expected and right in the middle of tears and sorrow, just when I am sure that nothing good can ever again happen, I'm off on a new adventure. Surely this has to be God intervening on my behalf.
Mistakes? I'm in my forties, and I've started over more times than I'd like to admit. In some ways mistakes are a sign of living life properly.
Don't let others define who you should or should not be. That is enough to make anyone depressed. Try to be outside, maybe, a run? a walk? rollerblading? Kickboxing? Things that make you feel alive!I'm completely serious about this: You feel horrible because of the drug withdrawal. Keep at it! I am starting to feel better, and I'm almost into my third week. If you have a true, chemical depression, see a brilliant doctor, someone completely supportive of you -- even if it costs you money. Find the money if you don't have it because YOU ARE WORTH IT!!! Thing is that you deserve to feel terrific, and right now you just don't. You hurt. If by any chance you are feeling badly because someone else is judging you or you are trying to hold yourself up to someone else's standards rather than allowing yourself to be the most perfect guy that you already are, you need to let that person leave your life. You do not need them around while you are busy rebuilding your strength. They are robbing your very valuable energy. I don't care who they are. They are dangerous to your person.
Get some healthy food, get some exercise, fresh air, water, good health care. Please know that God wants you to be happy and healthy. Anyone that tells you otherwise is just full of it!
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