Posted by jonh kimble on October 1, 2004, at 22:08:44
In reply to clonazepam. is this it?, posted by jonh kimble on September 29, 2004, at 22:03:46
Yup, still looking for anti anxiety plus pro social effect. I like the recommendation of useing clono. for the more than less anxiety provoking situations. My main fear is conversing! This as you all know is pretty common event. Im terrified of not saying the most appealing perfect thing all the time, and also terrified of sounding boring and just like everyone else. I go into conversations thinking Im going down, I have nothing to say that could possibly work in this senario (which is true given what I expect!). I start perpetuating these beliefs and conversations are done before I even start. I have to make everyone happy, and when someone asks me what I think,well, what does it matter, I want to say want you want me to say. So I have to be independant but always on everyones side. Sounds like I need to chage my beliefs right? Well, yes but this hypervigilance of possible negative outcome is intrinsic with anxiety in general. If I offend someone Im better of dead. If I am a thoughtless hypocrit pushover Im good as dead. Insanely complex delema over seemingly simple prob. And see clono allows me to look at a conversation as a friendly event, rather than a test, and if I do screw up, its a deal rather than a big deal. Anyway, this has desimated my life for as long as i can remember. Needless to say thanks for the suggestions and I hope this makes sense!
poster:jonh kimble
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