Posted by elainen on September 29, 2004, at 15:48:18
In reply to Re: Running out of options and meds to try!!!!!!!Lex, posted by prodgirl on September 29, 2004, at 14:45:08
I totally understand. I look forward to when I can wake up and not have to worry about forgetting things, saying wrong things, getting lunch made for the kids, wondering if I am being irrational, wondering why am I here....the whole slippery slope of nonsense. We are stationed in Germany, I get in to see the doc when I get lucky. She is recluctant to make any changes. She said my mood swings were not so bad, and that I wasn't in any legal trouble yet, right> I didn't dare tell her about the death thoughts that trip through my mind. Which is my big symptom that a whopper is coming on. I do have the support of my mom and a friend. My husband thinks I use this as an exuse.
An excuse for what???? I want to be able to finish a task. A year ago I was functioning fine, working full time, taking care of three kids while he was deployed, then suddenly, it just all fell out from beneath me.
I do get that dysphoric (sp?) mania. I wish it were euphoric..then at least I could write some kickin poetry.
So, I am relooking at the AD, maybe the Wellbutrin is not the best thing for me.
But, my next appt is Oct 18, so I have to hang in until then. Today, I cried alot.
Maybe self-pity, but it's been awhile since I had a pity party.
Tomorrow, I will kick my self in the rear and get in motion and get all my tasks accomplished...
Thanks for your story. It makes so much difference to know I am not special.
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