Posted by Jasmineneroli on September 15, 2004, at 0:44:27
In reply to Re: Thanks all - I'm done. Jerry » Jasmineneroli, posted by jerrympls on September 13, 2004, at 5:32:03
Hey Jerry:
Yay! Things seem to moving forward for you! I'm SOOOOO happy for you, you most definitely deserve it.
I agree with your therapist's remarks, taking a step down isn't the same as failing or not meeting a standard. It's giving yourself a mental holiday, and chance to remove yourself from a negative rut/habit. From there you can always move up again, you've done it before. It's hard to take a breath and do it, cuz I've been in that place earlier this year. Just had to finally admit to myself "no, I'm not superwoman, I can't handle all this stuff in my condition and it DOESN'T MATTER THAT I CAN'T!" I fought with it for several months, until things got really rough, and I had let go of my image of my capabilities. I knew how good I could be, in optimium health, I just had to accept that I wasn't at that time. Some of us have high standards for ourselves and are strong and don't want to "give in" or feel weak. If we had cancer and were experimenting with different drugs, we'd step-down or take time off, wouldn't we??????I read your later post about taking some leave....excellent plan, I'm so glad your manager has been supportive, tell him psycho-babble people appreciate guys like him a lot!!!
As to your Pdoc - that's too bad he doesn't seem that attentive. Does he take notes? Mine always takes loads of notes whilst I'm talking, and on my next visit he's obviously gone over them before I come in. He often asks questions about things I'd been highly reactive to or emotional about before - to guage how I'm doing I guess. Then when I get home, I realize he'd been probing on those old issues and think "how clever!". Tell yours to take notes, so he can check how your reactions/feelings are changing.
I'm glad you're going to ask about trying new meds...it's always a pain to keep experimenting, but it seems to be the only way to find something that works.
I think you will feel a bit better now that you are taking some control and realizing that you've used a lot of courage to do that.How did the sleep specialist app't go? I'd be interested to read what happened there.
Keep it up Jerry, things are looking better :)
Best regards,
Jas
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