Posted by jonh kimble on August 30, 2004, at 21:40:21
K I have this thing were Ill be with someone and my minds always blank. No matter who. This basically makes social interactions impossible. Everyones heres (at school) so nice but after I say where Im from, my name, etc... Im lost!!! Im always a bit behind the flow of the conversation. I see others talk so freely about nothing and ENJOY it. I have nothing driving me to talk to others (since I cant) so this makes life utterly miserable. Im like this with people Im really not worried about being around too (although slightly less so). IM very sensitive to disaproval, but things like be yourself just dont seem to help in any way whatsoever. Stimulants help alot, but tend to poop out and cause this rebound state that can be terrible. Could this be ADD? Antidepressants never help and Ive tried many. Also wellbutrin (ad i know) and adrafinil and amisulpride. i also spent a long time in CBT for social anxiety and although I stuck with it, it really didnt help at all. My mind often feels blank and typing something like this takes so long to think of what to type next. I usually end up saying how are you? oh good. ok see you. Believe me ive tried to stick it out in a conversation.
This all makes me very socially anxious because I feel helpless in social situations! However, I dont feel my fears are irrational you see, contrary to typical social anxiety. True my self esteem is low, but its due to this. Any insights/ Similarites? Thanks a bunch. Ive got to nail this before it nails me.
poster:jonh kimble
thread:384358
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