Posted by DeeJay on December 11, 2003, at 11:23:33
In reply to Surreal » DeeJay, posted by Dog on December 11, 2003, at 10:48:56
Okay Dog, no Jiminy jokes..promise. And I'm not really sure about the rash of intelligent 24 year olds either. I think I just played with a deck of rough cards while others were playing Hungry Hungry Hippo. And it's interesting to know that you were a Pastor. Perhaps I should go to church more...( I don't ever) which is probably some of my problem. I believe in God, heaven and hell, and all I remember from when I was young was Sunday school and bad lemon cookies with Hi-C fruit punch. Shame.
I have told my dad the exact thing you said about "til death do us part" and he knows that. I sort of have a fear (that came out to my psyc) that he will die soon...and for no reason. But that's a fleeting thought...comes and goes....horrible way to think. I can truly say that despite all my, what I call irresponsible times, I have emerged unscathed. Except for loving wine a little too much. And it's a catch 22 for me, because I know what I'm doing, know that I shouldn't, yet it doesn't interfere with the important stuff....but confuses the crap out of my boyfriend. He didn't drink until he was 26, never touched a drug...and never could even empathize with what I go through in my head. I am the female version of my dad, cynical and waiting for "something" to change, or happen or whatever...and it's driving me nuts. That's when I drink. But I am a concious drinker. Never black out, never hug the toilet, never make retarded decisions...but I kill myself emotionally. The worst thing.
Thanks for the input...and the writing comment. I was going to write a series of little books when I was in high school....but no one wants to hear the same crap over and over.
I just haven't found my edge yet..;)
I have learned to love this psycho-babble and it truly is a huge part of my day.
Deej
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