Posted by Mercedes on November 17, 2003, at 18:26:43
In reply to Re: Weaning from Effexor - Nightmares » Alara, posted by dagon on November 16, 2003, at 22:48:13
The NIGHMARES!............OH...... MY......GOD !!!!!!
Went to bed around 5AM, insomnia (still effexor related) so I did a little reading on PBabble.After that, I went to bed, fell asleep but I was dreaming that I needed to call 911. I have had this cough, so I took some cough med right b-4 going to bed and of course, now I'm med phobic due to effexor, paxil, topomax and any combination of drugs. I'd had chest pains earlier (compliments of paxil that I was given to help the withdrawals of effexor). I didn't take any nitro...I'm afraid of that one too now.
Back to the dreams. I guess I felt chest pains in my dream so reached for the phone to call 911 but the phone wasn't there or I couldn't find it. So I reach for the lamp and could't find the switch to turn it on, all the while I'm reaching for these things, my body is so heavy, like the blankets are pulling me back. Then I momentarily wake and I'm still in the same position I fell asleep in and very scared.
I guess I went to sleep again, reach for the phone again and finally have it in my hand and it just squishes in my hand. So I try to get out of bed, but this heavyness is holding me down. I struggle hard to get out from under the cover's and get to my bathroom which is like 5 ft away. I go to turn on the light switch and it's missing. Then I wake up & find myself in the same position I was in and feel so afraid, that all my efforts weren't real, I was dreaming.
Dreaming again....I make it to my kitchen to my other phone (still trying to call 911) and all the number keys are missing from the phone. At one point, (dreaming still) I got out the house to head to my neighbor's house to use their phone, still with this terribly heavy weight on me, clinging to my fence to get to her house, then wake again to find out that it's a dream. Anyway, I'm scared to death in reality and can't seem to call 911.
This part is reality. Finally 6:30 am, I see daylight and I reach for my night stand phone and call my brother. His wife answered and I blurted out I need help, dreams, can't get out of bed.....she drove to my house.
She wanted to know if she should call 911 or what did I want her to do?, I was crying now and said just stay here a bit, I don't want to fall asleep again. I finally ask her to help me get to the bathroom cause I had to pee. My legs felt frozen but eventually I got them to go over the edge of the bed, started to stand and I fell down, my whole body now laying on the floor. I started to lift myself up slowly. I ask her to get my son's walker from when he had spinal surgery last yr. at 22 yrs. She did. So I held on to the walker and went pee. Anyway, my legs felt weak and I didn't want her to call 911. (After all my dream attemps to call 911, funny huh?)
I told her crying....."I need to go to a mental hospital, these withdrawals are killing me....but they'll only give me more medications.." She was nice and said "no, you don't need to go to mental hospital". And she had a few choice words to say about the meds, doctor's etc.
So now I'm afraid to take meds, I'm afraid to go to sleep. This is the second time I've dreamed like this. First time was about 2 1/2 wks ago. I figured it was Effexor withdrawal.
I hate this! When's this effexor crap going to stop! Right now I feel a heavy heart and I'm afraid to take nitro. Why is this happening???? Was it lack of sleep? Was it visiting the pbabble board? Or is it still the effexor withdrawals. It was one month ago the 14th, that I took my last effexor. Pdoc told me to take a little Paxil but the paper says, "Do not take (this and that..medical terms, ok), together. Dangerous, even fatal, irregualr heartbeats may occur if these medicines are taken together". F**k, I don't know what I'm taking anymore? You know like if the "this or that's" are in anything else I take, even the cough medicine.
I'm scared.
(I have to see my therapist today, 25 mile drive)
p.s. I know you don't have any answers. I just had to share my nighmare story.
Mercedes
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