Posted by Stavros on November 11, 2003, at 21:09:06
In reply to Re: I cannot get away from myself and free my mind, posted by ace on November 11, 2003, at 20:45:17
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> > > Can you please explain this X in greater detail? You say it is a feeling- is there a thought which accompanies it? Sounds like an OCD variant.
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> > Thnaks for responding Ace. I have been Dxed with ocd a few yrs back and was given luvox but I cannot remember how it didn't work. Hmmm X is this place that my mind goes to? Like i am afraid of feeling and that maybe what X is but I cannot really describe it. Maybe i am afriad too? I am not aware of any thoughts that accompany X other than it's there when i am conscious. Thoughts that may accompnay it are "oh shit here it is again and I cannot get out? It feeds itself. I have met with some top CBT people and the last thing i want to do is think i just want to get away? X is the feeling of fear!
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> This X sounds like some sort of infinite pain- like no matter what you do it is there, right?
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> You try to accept it, it is still there, right?
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> You try to fight, it is still there, right?
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> OK, X wouldn't mean much, but the emotional feeling of fear that accompanies it is what really bothers you. If there was no pain attached to it, it would leave you.
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> This I believe is strongly OCD in nature- it is more obsessive 'feeling' than a thought.
> This feeling causes you suffering and is recurring.
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> I believe the best and most sensible route towards resolution of this problem is medication therapy.
> In other words I believe X is nothing more than abnormal neurotransmition mannifesting itself as this painful feeling and foggy thought.
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> Have you tried these drugs?...
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> 1. Clomipramine (Anafranil)
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> 2. Olanzapine (Zyprexa)
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> 3. Risperidone (Risperidal)
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> 4. MAOIs
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> 5. Tramadol
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> 6. Clonidine
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> These and many, many more could work for you. If you have tried any let me know for how long/and at what dose.
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> Lets fix this problem...no need to suffer.
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> Ace.
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> Thanks again. I have tried all of those meds and in combo except Tramadol.
I remember Clomipramine. I was taking it with Lamictal at a relavtively low dose. i get more afraid when my feelings are changed by a med without me doing anything. The Clomipramine/lamictal made me feel better mood wise but my body and face was so tight! I had horrible constipation as well. I couldn't keep up feeling good so we changed up to, cant rememberZyprexa and Risperdal I cannot rememeber what the result was other than i was on low doses again and wasn't liking tolerating them. Funny feeling or too sedating. Not feeling like me.
Every now and again when i get into a very distracting/involved project i would get clarity of mind plus my appetite would come back (current status)
I did take MAOIs but again I cannot remember other than something wasn't working right? It's all in my head and now i resigned to try one last time to reduce as many factors in the equation as possible. Has not been a good idea. thanks for your help but I just don't know the results of those meds. I will have ask my docs? I just want out!
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