Posted by socialdeviantjeff on November 3, 2003, at 3:01:48
I appreciate everyone's support on this board. You are all a great bunch of people.
I'm still pretty worried over what wil happen in the long term. I really hope to find some meds that work someday. The whole crux of the problem is that nothing seems to work. I've tried 4 diferent SSRI's, two TCA's, Lithium, Neurontin, Tegretol, vitamins, 5-htp, st john's wort and lots of other stuff I don't remember.
Every single thing has had horrible side effects. some have been done in combos, others in monotherapy. All of these meds were done under close supervision. At least 2x monthly visits and lots of phone contact with my pdoc. With anything that has even remotely started to work, the side effects have been devastating. I won't go into details, but as of now I'm just a walking zombie that twitches and chain smokes. I've been on Tegretol only for four weeks now with absolutely no effect. I can't even dose above 200 mg which is half of what my doc wants me to be at. I've been looking into the possibility of an enzyme defficiency of some kind. That or maybe some form of HFA.
The more I try the worse it seems to get. I have to private pay for all my meds. I have had to cut my work hours so much that I'm getting to the point that I can't afford to do much more.
I just don't understand how the system works anymore.
Besides all of my apprehensions, I've heard good things about Nardil. I've never tried an MAOI yet.
Considering how I've reacted to everything else, I might need close medical monitoring. While I've heard good things, I've also read some scary stuff about it.
Problem is, I might have to put myself on welfare to get insurance to cover the cost. If this doesn't work, maybe I should seek some hospitalization. I just don't know and am beginning to care less. Life sucks....
poster:socialdeviantjeff
thread:275998
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20031030/msgs/275998.html