Posted by Questionmark on October 30, 2003, at 6:36:03
In reply to Re: OCP » Questionmark, posted by galkeepinon on October 23, 2003, at 4:11:07
Thanks you three for your replies. Some comments & questions to yous...
> "How are your cognitive skills? Do you suffer from any 'psychosomatic disorders' ie. intestinal, heaadaches, etc.?"
Cognitive skills are okay-- slow, but efficient, if that makes sense, especially with things such as word recall and learning novel tasks. Do not have any psychosomatic disorders.
> "I ask this because difficulties for people with OCPD are related to their failure to grasp the impact of their own behavior. They are sometimes inept at reading other people's emotions and at experiencing and understanding their own."
Hm. Interesting. That first sentence seems very true.
> "But they are polite, rational, and detail oriented. They can be serious, conscientious, honest, motivated, and hard-working."That's me to a T (or is it "tee"?), with the exception of motivated and hard-working. Have so little motivation.
> "**But some OCPD symptoms are not responsive to medication, such as medication for obsessive-compulsive disorder."
Yeah. i'm thinking that this is completely a psychological problem-- one deeply intertwined into the very fabric of my being. Cursed disease. Cursed mind.
> "Maybe Anafranil and/or Luvox would help you.
> (Althought these are top of the line meds for OCD."That's a good idea. But the Nardil is too wonderful to give up. Severe depression and anxiety are still far worse than OCP stuff.
> "IMO, I think that overall, therapy is the treatment of choice for OCPD, maybe some CBT also..."That is also what Elle said, and i have definitely heard that before. It's true though. But i don't have the TIME to spend on CBT and long-term therapy, and i've wasted enough time as it is. No, i know it's still worth it. Man, why can't i always just have a quick fix for things? :?)
i said: "However, i don't think it has done anything for my OCPersonalityD (which no drug ever has). i assume this is just such an integral part of my f***ed up personality that there is nothing i can do to change it, med-wise."
Ace said: "Why do you speak so down about your personality? And OCPD behaviours do you display? Are you sure it's OCPD, cause as far as I knew OCPD was not ego-dystonic."What does ego-dystonic mean? OCPD behaviors i display are a ridiculous, unexplainable internal nEEd for perfection and rightness and the way i want or expect things to be. (Sounds incredibly spoiled and childish but it's really not, SO much). Hard to explain. The littlest and often strangest things can bother me so profoundly, so deeply, that i can be sent into deep depression just by overhearing a simple statement about something or by thinking about something that to most others would appear simple and menial. i am late for everything. Chronic and utterly ridiculous procrastination is a constant though unintentional occurance in my life. Inexplicably obsessed with the "should"s of life-- with what is right, morally and otherwise (the way things SHOULD be). Unconsciously obsessed with perfection in so many ways. okay thats enough.
i'm sorry i just realized this entire post was just me talking about myself. How pathetic. Please forgive me, i'm exhausted out of mymind.
Anyway, any (more) comments and/or insight on OCPD would be appreciated.
(Oh my gosh! How'd this get so freaking long?!)
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