Posted by Burnout on October 22, 2003, at 23:32:27
In reply to Re: CRAIG and everyone please read - Unreality, posted by Craig on November 18, 1999, at 1:34:16
After my first post I finished reading all the other replies, and this one, posted by Theresa (in 1999) sounds EXACTLY like me. Here's what she wrote:
On the subject of depersonalization and derealization, I was wondering if others have noticed that certain situations seem to make these feelings more intense. For example, if I'm in a store with bright lights, it's worse. I was walking around Target and Best Buy tonight and the bright fluorescent lights made me feel even more removed from the other shoppers. I can see everyone walking around, but I just don't feel part of what they're doing even though I'm doing pretty much the same thing that they are. It is a surreal experience. I also notice that my eyes seem to lock in a kind of stare and I have to tell myself to blink. Nobody notices that anything is wrong with me, so it isn't anything obvious to anyone but me. It is intense to me and if I think about it too much, I fall out of myself even more. Then I start to dissociate. It seems like other people in this thread either don't dissociate or maybe they don't know they're dissociating. Does anyone else feel themselves falling into a trance state? I've always been this way, so there is not a specific incident that I trace this to. I have driven around the city I've always lived in and gotten the feeling that I'm lost while in familiar surroundings. That's hard to describe. I can be very logical and say I couldn't possibly be lost, but the feeling persists. Thinking about all this now isn't helping me any. I'm staring at my keyboard as I type and my hands seem to be far away from me. The keys are moving and I know I have to be the one typing, but my hands seem disconnected from me. It is a very odd feeling. I don't feel "together" but I know that I must be. Well, it's time to stop thinking about all this. I wish I could be more helpful to you all, but I guess I have to figure out myself what to do.---Craig (by the way, there's another Craig who has begun posting to this board. My posts usually center around the same topic as this, so I hope people aren't getting confused.)
This is a very good description of ME! Much clearer than what I wrote earlier myself.
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