Posted by maryhelen on May 17, 2003, at 16:17:29
In reply to Re: What if it's just me?, posted by Chris O on May 17, 2003, at 11:52:58
Hi TapiocaMonk:
You say that you are miserable, but maybe it's just you.
* you don't have a job
* you don't have a focus in life
* you don't do anything but eat and sleep too much
* is that depression, or am I just lazy
* you are not motivatedIt sounds like a Catch 22. If you did find a job you would have a focus in life. You couldn't sleep so much and would probably not eat so much and you would not consider yourself lazy.
Or, is it because you are depressed you cannot achieve these things. My personal bet would be depression.
I know many people who don't have a job, who do not have a focus in life, eat too much or too little, have no motivation, are as lazy as hell but are as happy as, well I can't use the expression I want to, but, they are happy in their life and do not want to change it. They are happy watching TV all day, visiting with their friends at night and collecting their social security cheques (and feel they deserve it). When offered any opportunities to change this they do not want to.
I have also tried a myriad of medications and combinations and continue to do so, yet I am still depressed and very hard on myself, but I know it is the depression and not me. I don't know why it happens to some of us and not others. It is just the way it is.
I do not think that what you are describing is the 'real' you. My hope for you is, that, finally the Parnate will work for you and then you will know for sure that this is not who you are.
All the best and hang in there.
maryhelen
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