Posted by Questionmark on April 24, 2003, at 2:41:02
*(Caution: potentially discouraging).
i am so sick of this, people. Years of studying and searching for a cure for this diseased mind and i may be worse off now than ever. Natural stuff hardly works much and the synthetic sh*t helps one thing at the sacrifice of other things. i'm not on any meds now, but i have a prescription for Parnate. ...
i don't know if i want to go on another drug though, even one as effective as Parnate. From everything i've tried, everything i've read, and everyone i've talked to, i'm almost completely convinced that everything creates tolerance (any kind of psychoactive substance at least).. and eventually, poop-out. Look at us, going from one drug to another, trial after failed trial. .. or, me at least. And EVery FREAKing medication produces bad withdrawal when it is reduced or ceased (if on long enough at a certain dose). Every (psychoactive) medication causes dependence. They all freaking do! Benzos, SSRIs, tricyclics, MAOIs, etc. etc. i haven't felt the same since quitting Paxil in January. So basically it's a gamble: improve your life with a med for a certain limited amount of time (if youre lucky, and with side effects) and then suffer even worse misery when it poops out and/or you discontinue (and induce who-knows-what kind of negative and long-term brain changes during this time as well)... OR ... stick it out and try to fight it as best you can with no pharmacological help, remaining healthier (than you probably would be on a med) but almost inevitably never winning, never progressing, never getting out of this SH*T. What path do i take?
i also read recently how psychostimulants can cause maladaptions and possibly even cell death in dopaminergic neurons, and how they can really aggravate or even cause obsessive-compulsive traits and what not. ive been taking stimulants intermittently since i was 14 and it was only after reading this and thinking about it that i realized how that could really be the case (i took them for my ADD, not realizing that that was only a more minor problem)-- i'm much more o-c when on a stimulant. But now i dont have the motivation or focus to tackle any major task without a stimulant. F.ed if you do and f.ed if you don't.
i'm sorry for being so negative. But don't be too discouraged. i do believe that meds can really help a lot of people, especially if you are willing to be on one for a long period of time or indefinitely. Sorry this was so long too. But anyway, someone please tell me what i should do. i can't decide anymore.
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