Posted by Dragonslayer on March 18, 2003, at 11:52:05
In reply to Re: falconman.. A bit of your time ???, posted by falconman on March 18, 2003, at 9:32:47
Falconman,
Thank you for your honest response. I really appreciate. Actually, what I take now is the .125mg at night. (thus, the flake) I occ. throw in .125mg during the day. Rare - the last month I haven't done that. I do still have problems being out, at times. My first big panic thing happened out - it's a bit of a haunting experience. The Klonopin didn't help the *being comfortable* outside my house as much as I would have liked, but that was a problem for a while before the REAL anxiety and panic hit last year. I try to remember if I was always like this (the uncomfortable out, the lack of drive, etc.) I know I was to a degree, but I do think the Klonopin dampened things a bit. Unlike some report, and you discovered too, I never had the *Damn, I feel great, let's party* thing with the Klonopin. I guess I'm glad I didn't, in a way. The tolerance and dependence thing may have come into play more so than it has.
I'm sorry your situation isn't as you would like it. It's rough stuff, this head game. Hard to figure out and when you think you got it - you find you don't.
I think I was (still am, really) always looking for the perfect *better living through chemistry*. I don't think it's there. For me, and this is only my opinion for myself, the adding drug upon drug - for this and to conteract what that's doing, well I'm just not wanting that whole scene for myself. If I have to end up with that, so be it. Just can't see it right now.
I do feel like I traded a big problem for a much smaller, but very annoying one. But, was in dire straights at the time. What's did is DID. I know the anxiety problem is something I will have to deal with forever and that's real scary. It will always be in the back of my mind, if it's not in the forefront.
I guess I just want comfort and some energy and motivation to enjoy it. I also know I have to realize the low, low dose of K may not be the problem. It works for the big A ... I may stay with it or try to fly solo. I really haven't decided. One moment to the next, I change my mind.
Thanks again. I hope you work things out and get back to where you wanta be.
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