Posted by KrissyP on February 26, 2003, at 1:24:06
I have been in and out of one on one and group therapy since 1996. I feel like I need to talk to someone,I am not currently in any kind of therapy. I am so very afraid of a lot of things: my future, going back to work, and success. I wasn't always like this-it started after a break up with a boyfriend and my dad was doing drugs and it affected me so bad because I love him. Anyway, the depression and my "sense of direction" has never been the same. I was so desperate, that in Nov 1999, I received shock treatments. I don't know if anyone has had them? Back to fear,I constantly compare myself to my friends who are working (I am on disability for my depression and bipolar) and fear has just overwhelmed me and my life. I feel pressured to live up to expectations I have put on myself and other sources. Why oh why am I so afraid to suceed? I am, which has been a long process due to my instability, trying so hard to earn my BA finally and of all majors I chose Psychology and Health, which I do love. I want to be stable to enter Nursing School eventually, but am so scared of my future, if I will have a career, a husband, and stability again, this is really bothering me. Any feedback would be helpful.
Thank you
poster:KrissyP
thread:203910
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