Posted by LAURA777 on February 3, 2003, at 9:53:10
In reply to Re: ADHEDONIA QUESTIONS ?? please read , posted by missinglynxx on February 3, 2003, at 6:29:10
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> Hi there Laura. NO, Im not making fun, I just have an unusual writing style.
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> Its seems we are nearly identical about the SSRIs.I went to Albertsons after my first dose of 5 mgs of LEXapro a few weeks ago.
> I could barely walk thru the store, I had ataxia. It really sucked, Im a weightlifting and IM being killed by 5 mgs of Lexapro LOL,
> And everyones faces looked distorted etcetc
> All this on one dose...
> Right now, Laura Im taking Nortriptyline and Abilify 15mgs.........
> Im alot better on the abilify, the NOrtriptyline is worsening my depression so far. Ill give it more time
> what are you currently stuggling with. I just want a recovery by April,,,, This is such a merry go Round.. GOOD Luck with you recovery!hey michael , i struggle with adhedonia which is the primary reason for lack of motivation and interest .. everything is a push to do ... things like house work laundry are hard for normal people to do because they are not enjoyable , they are even worse for people like me to do because i do not have any balance of joyful things , so it is always a push , sometimes , but very rare i get a break and can do things and it is not so painful as in boring and unfulfiling . How does one explain this??? i know that i will be able to articulate this much better but i have to think about it .. another frustration for me is decisions , i can never decide what to buy in the grocery because nothing appeals to me .. it is maddening , because i have to make dinners and feed the family .. decisions that have sound reasoning like how to pay bills when to pay them , what to spend money on are easy for me , because i have sound reason to base these on , when it comes to decisions about what to do for fun and entertainment i am at a total loss because nothing to me is fun or nothing appeals to me.. i remember feelings of fun before age 12 years .. this depression or whatever you want to call it has made me a deep thinker and an isolater .. i do think alot and the reason i think i isolate is because i can not relate to other people and how they are enjoying life .. i just do not see it .. i think the person who made that bumper sticker " LIFE SUCKS AND THEN YOU DIE" suffered what i suffer from .. i am a very serious person , and i do not know how to have fun .. and that is another problem i have , like as if fun was something that you can learn .. i think it has much to do with feeling more than learning .. this is the best i can do for now with expressing what it is like for me , anyone out there who can relate ??? any one out there who can express it better ?? i would love to hear from you , because then i do not feel so lonely in this and also the validation is nice too .. and better expression of this is great too because then i can better describe to people how this feels .. so please respond away lovely people .. thanks laura
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